You know that video where this little girl is asking Siri how to say graduated in Spanish? Yeah, it's living rent free in my head right now.
About 2 years ago, I created a Pinterest board for my 2025 graduation. But guess who's not graduating until 2027? Me. I won't even have my convocation ceremony until January 2028. That's 2½ years from now. While I try to seem very unaffected by this fact, there are times when it's just really hard to deal with. Like when that church member asks for the umpteenth time if you're in your final year. Or when you see another Instagram post of your mate graduating. By the end of the year, it would be my juniors too.
So back to what I was saying, I have a Pinterest board for my 2025 graduation. "Have" because I can't find it in me to delete it. You see, I've always known I'd spend a long time in school when I chose to attend a federal university. I knew, but I didn't really understand what it meant. I didn't understand how much I'd feel behind my peers each time I added another congratulatory comment to a graduation post. I didn’t understand, but I accepted it as my reality.
A year after I started university, I joined an online school. It was everything I'd wanted from education and more. If you've read my posts on Medium, you'll know how much I loved that school and believed in it. I joined in 2022 and was set to graduate in 2025. Sometime around this month actually. All the hopes I never let myself have began to build. I began to dream of graduating early, pursuing the career I wanted and setting myself up for global opportunities.
Studying online while still pursuing the degree at my federal university was very hard (My parents didn't let me quit the federal uni). However, the dreams I had kept me going. I knew I just needed to get to the finish line and earn my BSc from the online school. Things would work out after, I thought.
Exactly a year ago, the unexpected happened. The school shut down and I had to come to terms with the fact that my 2025 grad was never going to happen. I thought I'd be over this by now, but I guess it's harder this month. Honestly, I don't know why I'm telling y'all about this. I've not written anything in the past 3 weeks and I didn’t plan to break the silence with this kind of post. To my new subscribers, I promise it's not always so gloomy on here😅.
I saw a video tonight that spurred me to write though. It was talking about how there are 4 seasons in life - spring when you plant, winter when you wait and the ground is resting, summer when things are growing and fall when you harvest. However, people mostly talk or post about their seasons of harvest. When you find yourself in that position where it feels like everyone else but you is celebrating, remember that you are only seeing 1 out of the 4 seasons of their life.
I know
Though the winter is long even richer
The harvest it brings
Though my waiting prolongs even greater
Your promise for me like a seed
I believe that my season will come
Isaiah 60:22 NLT
[22] The smallest family will become a thousand people, and the tiniest group will become a mighty nation. At the right time, I, the Lord, will make it happen.”Galatians 6:9 KJV
[9] And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
God's promises to us are clear and profound. I love how it says, "In due season", "At the right time".
Even though I'm feeling perhaps right now, here's my confidence: My season will come. When it's due and when it's right. I sometimes forget this fact and I'm glad I had that video remind me. I'm sharing this here so you can be reminded too. If you're waiting, sowing or growing, be rest assured that your season of harvest is coming. You don't have to worry about when. Just know it will come when it's due and when it's right. That's God's promise for you and I.
So yeah, I'm not graduating in 2025. But, I will graduate. It's just a matter of time. While I sow, wait and grow, harvest is coming.
Isaiah 40:31 KJV
[31] but they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
When I struggle with waiting on God, I love to listen to Seasons by Hillsong Worship. It hits differently every time.
PS: The pull quote is from the lyrics.
It is the waiting season. Sending you all the love.